so much changes in a year, at any point i think back 12 months ago i always think "wow i miss back then" and it hurts and i am always an entirely different person in the memories. i am changing and developing on a weekly basis... it's too fast for me to catch up with myself. i miss being who i was only a few months ago, i miss who i was last year. thinking of last year hurts. how can that even be? but even then, i know so much will be different come christmas time. everything is in constant flux even though it always feels the same day by day. same background, same ceiling, same people, but always so different inside. i feel so lost at the minute, growing up and growing apart and caving in. but it won't matter because within six months i will know so much more about life and i think i endure emotions to the point that i stop feeling them. growing up is dying inside. and i feel that. and we predicted it 8 years ago. we knew. but it's still happening. letting it happen.

listen dude, if this whole novelist thing doesn't work out for me, and this whole musical artist thing doesn't work out for you, can we just like... pool all of our resources and humanity together and form a rescue house for blind kittens? http://www.collegehumor.com/video/6653472/blind-kitten-plays-with-toy-for-the-first-time by the way, someone's cutting onions up in your fucking shoutbox or something man i dunno!

Out of these four fantasy lives, which one would you choose for yourself? http://img.4plebs.org/boards/tg/image/1366/47/1366471245269.png

http://homepages.paradise.net.nz/milhous/fishisms.htm

lol eminem

I can shout on my own wall it's the return of the, oh wait, no way he didn't, the voices in my head

you fucking bastard

lolwtf you on dat puru pururin time again...

if my current plan goes awry whatever happens PLEASE do not let me buy a PS4 before a piano

it's funny, because, i never even assumed bears would shit in woods. i had always imagined them shitting on riverbanks or something. and of course, polar bears probably do it under water. but man, a lot of magic would never have been conjured in my life were it not for Iron and Wine. you must know what i mean... that's life-changing music.

i'm a bit addicted to stumbleupon atm, do you use it? it always throws me amazing hd photographs of natural beauty and book lists, and then random stuff like this i think you'd like- www.calm.com online guided meditation, the woman's voice is 1000x less sexual than that cd you sent me and the backdrops/music are really soothing.

pick a number between 1 - 62 - this is your new destination: http://mentalfloss.com/article/51788/62-worlds-most-beautiful-libraries

my gold-ribbon wrapped box had a butterfly in it, what did yours have?

have you read/heard this speech? http://www.guardian.co.uk/books/2008/sep/20/fiction it gave me goosebumps. if you get bored skip to the last 3 paragraphs. or youtube his name to listen to it. good stuff. GOOD STUFF.

MEANWHILE, IN THE UK... http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/science-environment-22567526

oops dude good point I got it wrong, we had the 'next gen' by Commodore, the Amiga... they were released the year I was born so that makes perfect sense. It was in my bedroom and I would wake up at 4am to my Dad playing Battle Chess and Gods, those are some of my earliest memories. I think Lemmings may have been my first ever game. Or Sonic. I probably would have been about 4 or 5. Yes I played Pokemon, but I barely remember it. All I remember is how addicting it was. But in the end it was all about Mario and Tetris! I seriously didn't know you came from a Nintendo household - usually you can tell those things pretty fast!

I'm trying to figure out how I old I must've been when I was legitimately playing the first Mario? Do you remember your first gaming age? Lol I know I was small and I even still remember the living room and the small chair in my head but I don't know what I age I was. Maybe 2-3? I do know I started mario 2 just around turning age 4 bc that's when we moved to Spain. That game was HARD

WHY DO I BOTHER? NO ZELDA? GOODBYE Zelda was on Game boy too ;( Did you at least play pokemon? To be fair, I myself am fully aware of my shortcomings in never having played the legendary FFVII. I'm certain beyond a doubt that it was absolutely fantastic but yeah at that time I was just switching over to n64 from my SNES haha. And no we never had this convo! My god I grew up with a NES controller in my hand. I was better at that than I was at pooping and eating. Commodore? How old are you exactly?

oh, have we never had the conversation about childhood gaming? in my household it went, in chronological order, Commodore 64 > Sega MegaDrive > PSOne > PS2 - we did not ever own a Nintendo console. Aside from my personal Gameboy which was probably my most precious toy from childhood since my mum never ever bought me dolls or barbies despite my wishes. Please don't have a heart attack but I never played Zelda. I was too busy with FF7.

Naturally, I've heard and like Amy Winehouse. I am very familiar with the Back to Black album. My mum plays it a lot, one of her favourites. I love practically all the singles, though not too keen on Rehab. But they do resonate particularly strong with me (Back to Black, Love is a Losing Game, You Know I'm No Good, Tears Dry on Their Own). I'll even go so far as to tell they were indispensable to me during a depressive interlude of Winter 2011-2012. But I haven't sought her out for my own listening pleasure beyond those songs.

it's not my favourite but I can see that it's yours!

I knew you'd be a bit miffed. But think of it this way - it might be good that we do not consistently distract each other through Facebook messaging. Also, this is an initial trial to see how I get on without it. That said, the trial is indefinite...

Zep II for me buddy ... prefer it overall even if my favourite songs are on the other records, ya know?

like, i just scrobbled you mate. you now have an entry on last.fm. i apologise, or i don't. were you planning on a stage name? i doubt it. not that it's your full name anyway. but seriously is this cool? i just got sick of having your files in my library without an artist. but i can delete it from my scrobbles upon your request. my understanding of what is appropriate between people is about as fucked as yours is, so clue me in to this artistic privacy shit please. p.s. i think you should make it a mission to record something with a backing band. just like a casual jam with your mates. i would love to hear some rhythm in there. also i would like an mp3 copy of that duet you did with that girl? is that possible?

clint eastwood would give you a smouldering look of buried reverence right about now

Landslide? Wrong album, dude. I am an album listener again now. Remember these days: http://farm1.staticflickr.com/57/200589989_e71ba2c7c0_b.jpg ?? Kid A and On The Beach! Fucking legit. 2006 that was most definitely. I am back to the appreciation of albums. Music was always better this way. Shuffle was only good for the train journeys. In fact, shuffle is ESSENTIAL for train journeys. But because I was riding so many trains I got into the shuffle habit back home. But it's no good. Albums are the way to go. Queue one up, then keep adding more to the night's playlist depending on my feeling. Sometimes, throwing in one or two random tracks to break it up. It's the best because it's like telling a story to yourself through the albums and how they make you feel. Themed playlists are kind of out of style now, I have tried to make some and failed. I miss this shit! Between us, I mean! I am about to write you that message now.

Rainier. Come back to Last.fm. It will help you on your musical pilgrimage. There is the problem of a promise you and I made with each other about 5 years ago. It had a lot to do with keeping our souls intact, Buxton, etc. Television and MMORPGS can wait. In fact, they can fuck off. And Facebook too, can fuck off. I will not respond to you on Facebook until this is resolved!

You had Someday the Waves on repeat for 18 hours... fucking lol'd

birdforth You gotta listen to music more often man. 28 Dec 2009 Reply

wtf dude Human is a terrible song

Oh yeah, I don't listen to much Decemberists anymore so I haven't gotten round to "loving" some of them, but that one I rarely skip in shuffle.

MSN is being a fickle little bitch.

I do asshat. I can listen to 200 tracks on my iPod and it will only scrobble 20. I wanna kill it. I might start ORGLING.. it's a Winamp thing and everyone on Last.fm is a CUNT (have you noticed?) 'cept for like you me greg others possibly

FUCK HOW IS HE STILL THERE?

You listen to more Neil Young than me.. :( This shoutbox should be full of me, and with this post I knock greg off the bottom.

Also, Passing Afternoon is nowhere on my list wtf dude. You're right, I do love it though.

Sorry, but I can't afford to go jetting off to random Latin American countries in the middle of February because of my course, and because I literally cannot afford it as I am in so much debt. So, where is Berklee? Also, did you randomly make lots of money on stocks and are now loaded? Lucky cunt aren't you! :D

ohai brb

Your musical compatibility with birdforth is Super FINALLY ONCE AGAIN why don't you use this anymore :( I'm listening to Damien Rice, but on my iPod which I do recently and nothing get scrobbled! I wonder how long it will take you to find this. Tiredness fuels...

oh also if you haven't already you need to get into THE BROKEN FAMILY BAND because they are QUITE YOU

oooo send me the death cab cover of bjork!?

i meant our

sorry! i can't believe out compatability rating is LOW what the fucccck

The tort tortoise fought us and taught us to sort ourselves out.

I know, I thought I should try.

I'm glad you're still alive anyway

I have severe toothache and can only drink liquids that are over room temperature. Which is sort of exactly what you have minus the toothache!

are you in california?

i wasn't exactly complaining, just letting you know so our communication didn't get even more tangled.

dude i don't know morse code by the way