couldn't speak

Would you look at me now?
Everyday, every time, you got me thinking about
All the ways that you've wasted all my love
And without even knowing if you'd hurt me bad

You go running around
You fake tears, act like I'm the bad one
And now, you got stain on my name I could never get out
When you told them that I was mad

You know that I couldn't go outside
'Cause people have been throwing rocks
At anything or anyone that shines

When I said, "Let's separate", you said, "It's fine"
Now, they hate me without knowing
All of the sides, oh, all of the sides

But there's no way to turn back time
And make them believe
Oh, how you held me down that night
And I couldn't breathe
If only I could take it out
Oh, the pain that's in me
It would've been an easy way
And I wouldn't have to walk away if I could just speak

Hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm (if I could just speak)
Hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm

Don't wanna see you go down
Even though you spent years using pity around
I should've saved myself but I didn't know how
'Cause I was desperate to just vanish fast

You know that I couldn't count
All the times they stared like I'm a criminal found
Had to beat myself 'cause I'm the one who allowed you
To break me just as bad

But we both know I couldn't go outside
'Cause people have been throwing rocks
At anything or anyone that's mine

When I said, "Let's separate", you said, "It's fine"
Now, they hate me without knowing
All of the sides, oh, all of the sides

But there's no way to turn back time
And make them believe
Oh, how you held me down that night
And I couldn't breathe
If only I could take it out
Oh, the pain that's in me
It would've been an easy way
And I wouldn't have to walk away if I could just speak

Hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm, if I could just speak
Hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm (if I could just)
(If I could just, if I could just, if I could just, if I could just speak)
Hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm

But we both know I couldn't go outside
'Cause people have been throwing rocks
At anything or anyone that's mine

When I said, "Let's separate", you said, "It's fine"
Now, they hate me without knowing
All of the sides, oh, all of the sides