I'M GONE

(Yeah) lately I haven't been feeling good enough anymore (Yeah)
Should I go and not have to deal with this anymore?
I'm gone, say your goodbyes
Because I'm not going to be here anymore

Yeah
My fucked-up life, it's painful sometimes
Staring at the sky, leaving my normal thoughts out of my mind
Surprised I've lived this far
It's torture when my mental health wants to decline
Numerous times I've tried to end things
Happiness was so hard to find
I tried to leave it all behind
Everything found its way back in my life (Yeah)
It wasn't until I was sixteen, I started using the knife (Yeah)
On and off for years after, nothing ever changes
Since then, I started worrying
What I was going to be in my afterlife, yeah
Back to the start, born in double 0 living for the dramatics
Skipping school, no friends
So I tried to make my music classics (Ai)
Diagnosed for too much at a young age
I finally found out the reason for my thoughts
Trying to push out the tragic memories
I can never think straight so rapping helps me escape my terrors
If I told anyone what I was thinking
I would be looked after by carers
You see nothing was seen to at a young age
I was deemed as a stressor
But they didn't know the real reason I'm not okay
I needed a repairer, yeah

Lately I haven't been feeling good enough anymore (Yeah)
Should I go and not have to deal with this anymore? (Yeah)
I'm gone (Yeah) I'm just done with it all (Ai yeah)
I'm gone, say your goodbyes
Because I'm not going to be here anymore (Yeah ai ai)

If it wasn't for my music
My nights would lead to more depression
After the shit I have done in my past
I know I won't go to heaven
Fucked up another relationship
We'll add that to the collection
I use my music as a diary
Soon I'll write my confession (Yeah)
Seeing all my flaws, they're hiding in my reflection (Ai)
One little screw up, there goes my aggression
I'm known as the crazy one
I'm the true definition (Yeah)
Meet me for the first time
You'll have the same impression, ai
Born in negativity, flex online with the positive vibes
Hide my emotions through sarcasm
And be dead inside all the time (Yeah)
Losing people since a young age
Enough to put you off for life
That's the reason I have "to the last bullet" tattooed
I lost so much hours being awake at night
My eyes started to drown
I felt so much pain from sleepless nights
Thought I was going end up in the ground
I feel like ending things soon
Because I am lost and not yet found
I'm trying to think about different alternatives
I know I won't back down
Diagnosed with depression for over ten years
And still looking for an exit
Hid it well before but there's still no getting away from it, yeah
One minute I'm okay, then my mind gets distracted
It's all noises at this point
Everything together is extremely chaotic (Yeah)
I tried to find the reason I feel like this inside
After all it is one fucked up world imbedded in my mind
Juggling unnecessary pressure and anxiety
I just want to leave it all behind
The way things are going in my life
I'm not making it past twenty five
Just some perspective of what's going on in this mind of mine
Too much to spill, will save more for another time
I got dark thoughts all the time I know I sound edgy right?
I'm like Patrick Bateman
I'm living as a psycho minus the crime
I got countless depressive rhymes like this
This is what gets me in my zone
Writing lyrics at four AM, no wonder I feel so alone
What's the struggle for me today?
My mental health or my Chron's?
I don't want to look into my future
I'll be locked up in a room surrounded by foam

Lately I haven't been feeling good enough anymore (Yeah)
Should I go and not have to deal with this anymore? (Yeah)
I'm gone (Yeah) I'm just done with it all (Ai yeah)
I'm gone, say your goodbyes
Because I'm not going to be here anymore