Lyrics
Time has never felt slower
Circling the marks on this coffee-stained table
And everyone's minding their business
While I pretend I'm not listening to new conversations
Beginning again is always the hardest part
Of learning to be friends
They don't teach you that in life lessons
So when you walked through that door, I went frozen
But you didn't seem cold
And my shoulders had thawed
"You look just the same."
And you laugh at that
And I'm thinking that I've missed
The curl on your lips
And I'm trying so hard not to say it
In my mind, I'm so helpless
But I just tolerate it
And two years ago
I was yearning for closure
And now that we're older
I wish I had known that
By this time, I don't want it any longer
Shouldn't have kept your number
I was doing so well
Now, you're giving me hell
I hate that it's not your fault
But God, I really thought I was out of love, but
Beginning again is always the hardest part
Of learning to be friends
They don't teach you that in life lessons
We're talking more now
And you're holding my hand
Showing up at my door, and
How does it feel
To do this to me and think this isn't real?
Oh, you're killing me slowly
Where's the sick to your stomach?
See how sinful you make
Finally sitting in front of me
But why don't we feel the strange happy?
Should've left it at "Hello"s and "How are you?"s
Or is there a scar of mine you're trying to unbleed?
With our time spoiled and expired
Hate myself even harder
Make me think I got it right
Then fuck me over all night
Beginning again is always the hardest part
Of learning to be friends
They don't teach you that in life lessons
You tell me 'bout her now
And you're moving away
The promise you made
When we were young, in love, and unafraid
It's funny how things all worked out
Well
For you, anyway
And I'm still stuck
With that same old coffee stain