I wake up, the first thing I think about is
YOU & what YOU're doing, & where YOU are.&.
what is going to happen next.
I carry on doing what I'm doing even though I
may frequently wonder what the heck I am doing.
It is strange, but there is a certain kind of
knowing that this Love is True and there is a future in it.
People may think ME crazy,
but all I know is I am Happy and somewhat carefree,
even though these are traumatic,
uneasy times for me, mixed in with that are the best times ever.
I have laughed & had so much fun,
but also I do feel loved and wanted by YOU.
I do not know everything, I have shed tears,
been driven to anger & exhaustion with the game-playing.
I have gone around in circles.
but this whole thing is circular.
everything leads back to the one place.
Parallel worlds colliding.
In the uncertainty & strange.
there certainty & a ab.
normality, a kind of knowing &
trust that everything will be all right.
I truly believe that.
Had Revelations yesterday, just planted in my head, my being.
that this whole thing started years & years ago.
Certain things I believed to be part of
YOUR story are not true, just invented.
I am here because I am sustained by YOUR Love.
even though I do not know everything.
but not to know everything is part of this journey.
It strikes ME that Ulysses is at the heart of these goings-on.
the adventures, the Biblical, the Greeks,
the Chariot, the prejudices, all of that.
I am meant to be an earthy, round, full of nature & elements MOLLY.
She has a dream.
about her times in Gibraltar.
Molly dreams a lot.
Molly doesn't care about vulgarity.
well she does & she doesn't.
I do not like vulgarity & toilet humour,
I suffered & suffer extreme embarrassment in front
of the whole wide world whilst with YOU You Yeuse.
can't really articulate it.
I don't know how.
I just put all this to one side.
because in the midst of everything I
have never felt so supported in all my life.
it's the truth.
also through all this I have grown stronger.
it is difficult to process everything.
it is all so surreal, YOU, the songs, the people out there,
the celebrities, different versions of ME walking around.
I am Really bewildered li
KE a dear in the headlights, startled, so sooo flattered by it too.
People seem to have taken to ME.
I have noticed something...
people are Really, Really Happy & Uplifted by OUR story & adventures.
Everybody is part-taking in the dream
& looking to a Happy Fairytale Ending.
I discover daily that songs I love.
actually were written with ME, YOU YOI in mind.
KE this song.
How special is that.
I am, in fact,
in a different world or worlds to MY usual everyday world.
These worlds collide, and Than
K God for it.
Everybody around ME is part of it, Everybody.
It is sooo very special, all of it.
apart from some of it.
Oh How I have been TESTED.
Oh My Oh My.
the humiliation, a lot of emotions.
but somehow I get through.
because I trust, I have faith, I know.
that I have YOU.
it might seem arrogant.
but I just know.
and the songs.
the Beautiful, Beautiful Songs.
YOU have swept ME off my feet.
but it is not just a dream, it is something that came from a dream.
It is a knowing.
that is why I am still here.
with an open, vulnerable but brave heart full of Fortune.