Songtext
I've been searching for a long time
Just to find out if I mean right
Am I okay?
Am I honest?
Was I lying to myself?
I remember way back when
I was trying so hard
Stole my father's car
Trying to get away
How did I make it that far?
Grabbed a bottle of Jack
And got lost in a fantasy I made for me
But I'm still stuck right here
I don't know if I made it clear
That I crashed into a wasteland
Dived down deeper than I should have
When I'm falling down strung out and faded
Back before the drugs and the medication
Things were looking up, how did I get here?
Locked up in my room, too tired to be scared
Trying not to call on my temptations
But just like her lipstick I still taste it
A bitter so sweet
I've been waking to the sunrise
Asking questions that I can't find
Am I so close to the answers
I don't believe them cause I'm blind?
I can't see at all
I've been giving it up
Living life on luck
Stuck in the middle of my fake friends
Who don't give a fuck
Long nights we spend in L.A
All the noises wash over me
It's all make believe
But I'm still stuck right here
I don't know if I made it clear
That I crashed into a wasteland
Dived down deeper than I should have
When I'm falling down strung out and faded
Back before the drugs and the medication
Things were looking up, how did I get here?
Locked up in my room, too tired to be scared
Trying not to call on my temptations
But just like her lipstick I still taste it
A bitter so sweet
And I don't want to be a bother
But you know it's criminal how lost we all can be
Is it typical to turn our backs on ourselves
With our hearts turned out on our sleeves
And I don't want to live this way
I don't want to live ashamed
I don't want to live this way
That I crashed into a wasteland
Dived down deeper than I should have
When I'm falling down strung out and faded
Back before the drugs and the medication
Things were looking up, how did I get here?
Locked up in my room, too tired to be scared
Trying not to call on my temptations
But just like her lipstick I still taste it
A bitter so sweet
A bitter so sweet
A bitter so sweet