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Tilaton wrote:

Hehe, oh, and it's always a bit suspicious if someone is telling his honest. Why does he do it? Now I'm suspicious of myself! That's it about lying and honesty, when you think about it, we really don't know what either of them mean.

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Tilaton wrote:

I had fun in the New Year's eve, thanks to Annadoll for kicking my virtual arse and getting me out of my cave. Went to the pub I always go and met all the good people I know in there and talked a lot and had fun even though I witnessed a couple of rows around me. It seems New Year makes people's feelings run a bit high. Then I almost froze solid in the 1,5 hour queue for taxi in -14C, but survived. So, this has to be the time for changes. Gotta get back to living. Been undead for too long. Hope you'll have a great year coming too. Happy New Year, officially! =o)

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Tilaton wrote:

Thanks for that shout. I sometimes get these horrible doubts about myself and how I come out as. (Drinking too much wine doesn't help.) I know that it's the crazyness in me talking and try to ignore it, but it's not always easy. It's really great when someone confirms what I "know" to be true. There was a time I felt that there were two different worlds, a black and white one. They were both there, always present, but I wasn't sure which one was real! In the end, some of the worst things about the black world were true and I pretty much collapsed as a result. Hence two years of downtime including one year of sick leave. Now I have quite clear view of what is true and I've learned to trust my instincts more, which is good as they are 99% of the time in the right. Funny thing really, me being rational often makes me more irrational. If I'd listen my instincts more closely I'd be a lot more rational than when I start really thinking. I seem to know a lot more than I am aware of.

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herm2s wrote:

Interesting charts. Maybe should I come back here ? H.

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annadoll2001 wrote:

Happy New Year, pet! Hope 2010 will bring you all the sexy hippies you can handle. x

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annadoll2001 wrote:

Sex, astrology and cutting... ah! That is a festive season worth bothering about... I got socks, arguing about guided missile systems and Madeira wine. Thank fuck that's over. Only NY tonight and I'll be home free. There really is nothing like feeling miserable in some one else's house longing for your own bed to wallow in is there? And to top it all, the internet died. Still, I found the idea shoe for my inflatable Antoinette outfit and bought Asian bridal jewellery for my starry outfit for tonight... very bellydance. Hope that Keith et al didn't totally do your head in and that you didn't get socks and a recyclable jute shpping bag. Actually, I rather liked them both. Very...useable. Or something. Can't get my head round 'City of Saints and Madmen' at all. I noticed it goes all weird after the priest and the mushroom people chapter... So I read one of the ghastly Twilight books and 'The Rotters' Club' instead. Not convinced by either...

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Tilaton wrote:

Hmmm, it seems I've managed to make sense even though I might have come through as some kind of a stalker. Hehe, I saw couple of your shouts on Annadoll's shoutbox, so maybe that counts as watching you. ;oD Damn those "world loving" moments that always come out a bit wrong. Now I have a headache, but it is well deserved. Take care!

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Tilaton wrote:

And here we come to this point about me. I'd be talking to exactly the same way to you if you'd be sitting with me here. It's a bit depressing but true. Even me destroying my profiles in the past is the way to express something that truely is me. But yes, I don't know about the music I've scrobbled. The truth is that 99% of all the music I listen is here in my charts and I like most of it. Yes, I think about my charts when I choose what to listen next, but I don't think I'd listen differently even if I didn't scrobble. At least I haven't done so when I haven't scrobbled. And if I look my charts, I feel as I lied to people. Maybe I lie to myself, listening to all this pretencious crap. Maybe it's what I am. I don't know.

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