According to Songfacts, Amos penned this song after the failure of her synthpop band Y Kant Tori Read. In Crucify, she digs deep inside herself to reveal the discouragement of expectations never met, utilizing various religious symbolisms to expose her hurting psyche.
Every finger in the room was pointing at me, I wanna spit
In their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach, I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now