Journal

For whoever read journals, following are my thoughts of the day...

So today was the end-of-term day at school after nearly two weeks of leisure, as I wasn't elected for any oral exam. Got up at ~09:10 am after 7 hours sleep... Tired as hell I got ready and went to catch the bus. I could have went by bike, but scool treats me with free bus rides because of the distance and my bus card exipired today, so I wanted to exploit the last chance. Besides I had planned to walk home, just for the sake of it... walking home and listen to the new fresh music I put on my muvo tx yesterday.

I felt really bad from the second I got up this morning; the usual routine feeling; another loop of the evil sircle... Not that a routine is bad, but the feelings connected to mine don't have any good intentions...

Actually I thought it was monday, seeing as I used to start at 10:00 am on mondays this year, until someone in my class asked what day it was and the teacher answered friday. Desorientated? Oh yes. *sigh*

So I got ready, went by the bus and arrived at school. That was when my head phones broke; a set of decent ear plugs by Phillips which managed to prove itself as garbage, seeing this was the second set I've bought from that brand this year, both broken by the same cause: the leader within the line tore apart by the plug... crap. And yet I decided to get another set from Phillips, but of the type that you put around your neck; less wear and tear from causual use, as I would put the player in the pocket and squeeze the line behind my belt to hold back redundant lenght (I like to draw the line under my shirt and let the plugs hang from the collar when not in use). On the other hand, I quickly realized I didn't really enjoy having the mp3-player bouncing on my belly as I walk - thank God it's matchbox sized and pretty light weighted. <3

I was the second person to enter our classroom this morning... feeling sad and quite low because of my anxiety (messed up emotions...), I sat down and just waited for everything to get over and done with... I recieved the print of my (rather tragic) grades and left... I was hoping to see and have a chat with one of the class mates I've got in touch with at school this year, but I couldn't make it... I just felt my guts twist and had to get out of there...

I walked home...really depressed... At first I decided to get a new pair of ear plugs at the local el-store. With doubt in mind, I ended up buying the set I mentioned; phillips neckband style. Then I went to the grocery store in the same street and bought myself a smoothie. Yum. And at last I decided to enter the mall acros the street, intentionally to see if the local record shop had any of the great albums I've recently discovered... which they of course did not. I asked for Poets of the Fall, JES, Röyksopp's album "Melody A.M." and Conjure One (last one's probably not shipping outside of Canada anyway...) But at least they had "Beautiful Intentions (New Edition)" by Melanie C, whom I've gotten quite into over the past weeks... alternative/pop/rock. Pretty nice actually, though I'd rather have her debut album "Northern Star", which has far more variety [ Goin' Down | I Turn To You | Never Be The Same Again (Single Edit) | Feel The Sun ]. But they only had this one, so it will do for now. Better than nothing. Hopefully it will grow on me.

I went to another grocery shop at the mall after burning a note on a somewhat satisfying CD purchace, and bought a bar of white chocolate - (Delicious! And it's the only shop in town that I know of which sells it) - before I finalized my little mall trip by looking around in some clothing stores. I found a pretty decent pair of trousers/shorts at one store and this lovely snap pant at another -- asked one of the shopkeepers to reserve it for me 'till tomorrow, as both ends didn't meet in my wallet at that point... It was the last remaining in my size..

I left the mall and sat down by some stairs outside the building. I unpacked the new neckband headset, and eagerly put them on and tied the strap to my mp3-player. Nifty! I loved it right away! So I sat there for just a short while, trying to enjoy my smoothie in the sun, listening to my music with new earplugs and feeling the warm breeze passing by. The summer is here...