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life_ly shit

aaaargh, i'm so tired of this fucking bioinformatics. blah blah blah "nuclear protons cleaved by caspase-3 during apoptosis". right. fuck this shit! why did i take scientific research in the first place? fuck it.

it was raining today. and yesterday for that matter. when it rains i want to kill myself and let my soul fly to St. Petersburg, so i angst. and when i angst i go to my bookshelf and get book of Saigyou's tanka.

rainy day tanka

Saigyō Hōshi (Japanese: 西行法師) (1118 - 1190), a samurai turned monk-poet, is one of the great literary figures of the late Heian and early Kamakura period.

yes, practically my role model. i remember i wrote a paper on hermits and other practices of self-denial in mr. mac's religions class. it was half-hearted since im a terrible procrastinator and at the end i had so much shit to do, i didn't put much time into the paper itself. when i now look back on it, i realize how much i could have added to it. …