Like me, he's a very dark, depressive person. When I begin dating someone, I put on my best face to win them over, but over time my lover always witnesses my depressive side and most of them left. Even after I told them how dark my moods could get, they continued their relationship with me, until they saw "My Dark Side" Waters is insecure to open up and show his true heart and mind because how repelling it can be, so he rhetorically asks questions to his lover, not out loud, but mulling them over in his mind. He wants to emotionally explode and let everyone see just who he is and how hopeless he feels, but this is only because he has decided to commit suicide. Fortunately, he aborts slitting his wrists by the most random of outside stimuli of the phone ringing and he realizes he doesn't really want to die.